My son has survived his first day at the kindergarden. He loves to play there and explore around. However, adjusting to the new early rythm, doesn't go that well. He is completely unwilling to eat or sleep. Of course the foods are not what he has been used to in China, but also he hasn't been asked to sit still like so many of the others. He has been raised by me and I have failed.
It's interesting how terrible it feels to see all the harm that being in China has done to his development. And it's not even China, it's the fact that I haven't been around mentally enough. I haven't paid enough attention to his needs, I haven't demanded that he sits at the table while eating his supper. Well, he has been eating by sitting in his pram for three months, so no wonder. But also he takes no contact with anyone - no kids, no adoults. He just shuts it out. Luckily the staff of his daycare are very professional and know what to do. I'm sure little by little, I will also learn how to be a better mother to my son. Right now, I feel like the worst of them all.